Friday, March 31, 2006

Virtual Me


I had noticed these virtual pictures on other peoples sites, but it has taken me a while to work out how to do them! Had lots of fun though, especially as I keep wondering what size I will look like etc...
that being said, the "fat" one still has a flat tummy? As if!! I've only been able to SEE my belly button the last 6 kilos or so. Maybe its genetic, I look at Fiona on the biggest loser and I have no idea why she has the tummy she has, because I can't remember very well a time when I felt like I didn't have rolls...
I remember feeling fat when I was a (younger) teenager and competitively swimming and dancing. Looking back now, I can see I was tiny, but I felt fat. Probably all the muscle, cos I weighed more than a lot of my friends, but was probably smaller. I guess I needed to get that out, because I want to be happy with my body, and I think my body image is probably already much better than it was back then!
hmmm... New resolution, as part of getting into the 60's, I'm going to get my fat before photos scanned so I can put them on here. I wanna do the comparison for real!
I am rambling a bit today, but I feel the need to. I have had a temperature and major pounding headache and awful throat, and so now that the fever has broken I've started thinking again... So I feel the need to just record my feelings etc. I also have weigh-in tomorrow, and have no idea what to expect, because of going away unexpectedly mid-week, and being unwell again. But I am not going to stress about it, I'm just going to do my best and keep on track, and have faith that everything will fall into place. Thinking at this rate I'll have to throw a party to celebrate getting into the 60's, because it's becoming quite a battle! :)

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Famous Short Women







I got to thinking the other day, about how everytime I watch a movie or TV show etc, I think to myself, I could never look like that because they are all so TALL. So I took it upon myself to find some shorter famous women, and see what they looked like. I found a site that lists heaps of people by height, it was really quite fascinating... These are the most relevant to me and my shortness, as I am around 5'2".

Judy Garland 5'3"
Sarah Michelle Gellar (Buffy the Vampire Slayer) 5'3"
Melissa Joan Hart (of TV's "Sabrina, the Teenage Witch") 5'3"
Vivian Leigh 5'3"
Natalie Portman 5'3"
Jennifer Love Hewitt 5'2-1/2"
Gillian Anderson 5'2" [1.57m]
Tori Amos 5'2"
Christina Aguilera 5'2"
Paula Abdul 5'2"
Rachael Leigh Cook (star of "She's All That") 5'2
Sally Field 5'2"
Holly Hunter 5'2"
Avril Lavigne 5'2"
Shakira 5'2"
Elisabeth Shue 5'2"
Reese Whitherspoon 5'2"
Carrie Fisher (Princess Leia in Star Wars) 5'1"
Janeane Garofalo 5'1"


Since realizing that while I still have 7 kilos to go until I get to the top of my range, I am currently fitting into size 12 and now 10 clothes, I have actually started to get a little worried. I haven't been in the healthy weight range since my teens, and before I had fully matured at that, so I really don't know what to expect. But at the rate I am am going, I can actually see that I might just be quite petite after all. I think I will still have broader shoulders and chest, I am a swimmer after all, but I can see the petite-ness emerging, and it's really quite fun!
Most of the people above seem to be at a healthy weight, and they are all petite, so I don't mind having them as my inspirations! Its better than looking at those Olsen twins or Lindsey Lohan or any of the other waifs I see on the magazies everytime I just want to buy some groceries. I would love to be as cute as Vivian Leigh though, bring it on! :) and when I was little I used to pretend to be princess Leia (which worked really well, as up until a few years ago my hair was very very very long!), though not with the metal bikini, I'll give that one a miss.
I am very interested in the role models that children and adolescents have, and therefore thought I should explore my own role models too, so I think this might become a little bit of a theme for a while.
To all the beautiful short women out there, What do you think of the role models we have in the spotlight for our height?

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Dotty


I'm feeling kind of dotty at the moment, it has been a long day, and a long couple of days. But I don't think I'm really ready to expand on that right yet. I am, however, exceedingly happy with the fact that I have been surrounded by people eating chocolate for almost a week in some very stressful circumstances, and I have been able to say no without too much worry! This is a big thing, I have had a huge problem with comfort eating, its kind of odd when it doesn't happen now!
Anyway, in my dotty mood I decided to get creative (my answer to everything! No wonder I'm a visual arts student!) and capture my mood. What do you think?

I think i need to ge something on this computer that has more scope than 'paint'!

:)

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Is that the right size for you?



I had an undercoverwear party on Saturday night, and I came out wearing something that I had put on and really just assumed was fitting right without looking (cos it was "my size"), and I went out to get the opinion, and got asked this question:

Is that the right size for you?

Oh gosh did I freak! First thing that popped into my head was "silly you, what makes you think you are a size 12, you are much bigger than that! They are all looking at you thinking 'she is going to break those buttons!'", and so I kind of mumbled "I think so...". Then my friend, who had made the comment, spoke out again and said "there seems to be a bit of spare room in it!" and I looked down and found all this space I wasn't taking up! The size 12 was actually too big; I needed the ten.

THE SIZE TEN!!!!
THE LITTLE PEOPLE CLOTHES!!!

About then I was a little too overwhelmed, so I went and got changed again (into my clothes that are falling off me...) , and by the time I got back out I was ecstatic! I'm so excited! And I tried on other non-stretch fitted skirts and tops etc, in size 10, and they all fitted!
I guess until now I have been saying I am only a ten in really stretchy items, but I don't think that applies anymore! YAY!

So in conclusion, I am a VERY HAPPY

Little Rae Rae :)

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Week 2 Challenge Weigh-In


Well weigh in time comes around every week, and brings new emotions every week... and this week they were decidedly unimpressed emotions. Even though I had the flu, I still did 210mins of exercise in the week (I had a great start to the week!), and I didn't exceed my extras, or eat all my sugar points. So I guess I went expecting a good loss.

Well, i Lost...

200grams.

Thats it.

GRRRRR...

Anyway, I am over it now. When I got home I was good and did my measurements and in just a week I have lost around the middle and legs. So thats great. I really, really want to be in the sixties though! *sigh*

To make myself feel better, (cos I know chocolate won't help, it's only a fair weather friend...) I made myself a picture of me at goal, in a gorgous dress from StopStaring (as seen below!).

Feeling better already! And I WILL be a sixties girl!
:)

Friday, March 24, 2006

Gorgeous dresses!




I was just visiting Tracey Anne's Site and she has the most gorgeous dresses from a site called http://www.stopstaringclothing.com/ and I want to buy all of them! Tracey has some awesome things she is going to do when she gets to goal, she has inspired me and I feel all motivated to achieve my own goal!
I have a red polka dot dress that I got a s a reward for getting to 74kilos and wore it for Christmas and weddings and I'd just love to have of these dresses too, and I'd feel GORGEOUS everyday!


Tracey Anne's weightloss journey: Go directly to GOAL. Do not pass Go, do not collect $200.

This time last year...


This time last year I was running around like a chicken with its head only holding on by a thread...
My flatemate and I were busy finishing making bridesmaids dresses, making and decorating the wedding cake, and finishing off all the decorations and had people arriving from everywhere as well. And I had uni assignments to do and classes, boy was I busy.
anyway, it was good, and it really seems a very long time ago! The photo I put on here is one of my hubbies favourites (you'd think the finish product would deserve more attention, but he likes this for the cuteness factor I think!), I think its quite funny!
looking over the year in regards to my weightloss, I have to be quite happy with it. I am 4 kgs lighter than I was when I got married,a and a much better body shape at that! And that is with having pneumonia last winter and subsequently putting on 6kgs while recovering from that. So those kgs are gone again plus more, and I'm well on my way to goal. I have also learnt since then to not eat badly when ill, and during this flu that I have had the last few days, I have been eating (good start!) and I have been eating good no count food (even better!). So I feel positive in what I have achieved and my progress for the year.
apart from weightloss, I have loved this first year of marriage! We have had some hard times, but I am really happy and love my hubby more and more each day! And I miss him now that he is away! Oh so much! But another thing I have conquered is the need to eat because I'm lonely, so YAY for me! :)
Feeling very pleased with myself today! :)

Thursday, March 23, 2006

The Evil Flu Elephant




I couldn't resist myself! I found this awesome elephant site http://www.hinandus.net/elephanteris/index.html (all images curtesy of them) and thought they summed things up quite well...

First the elephant virus flies in all mean and nasty and infecting...

Squishy Pinky


Then the subject turns into a little squishy pink object and their eyes go cross-eyed...

Brain fog


and then the brain fog sets in and forms funny dancing elephants in a fun far away land....


*GRIN*

The Flu Elephant


Today I feel like I a flu elephant. I feel like my nose is as long as the room, and my fingers feel far to big and funny to type properly, and my skin feel grey and weird... THE FLU ELEPHANT!
anyway, obviously this huge elephant is getting in the way of me doing exercise, but I am being good with food til I am better. Besides, I don't really feel like eating much anyway. But eating to keep the metabolism up is good. :)
Still, I exercised really well at the beginning of the week, so I reckon I have a loss coming my way!
KEEPING POSITIVE! :)

Monday, March 20, 2006

Powering Along :-)




Well my darling husband has started a new job and it's in Sydney which means during the next 40 days I only get to see him 3 times. :( But I'll be busy, and I am going to Perth for a few days as well, so I'll get by. I just honestly hadn't realised how much I would be affected by it. This is the first time since we got married that he has been away, and it is our first wedding anniversary on Sunday and he is working for it. It means however, that I have extra motivation for completing this 6 weeks in a very stylish fashion, because in May we will hopefully be going away for a weekend or something to celebrate our anniversary properly, and I want to be a hot, in the sixties, and very close to goal kind of woman by then! :)
I was flicking through photos that we had, and might get a little sentimental, but hey, that's fine! Thought I'd start with a funny one of me loaded up with camping stuff and a broken arm. Twas the second half of our honeymoon, down at Jervis Bay, and it was beautiful. :)

My Challenge is still going well, I POWERED through an hour long swim yesterday, doing 2kms in only 3 short stops for water, and a short aquarobics Rae-style workout to finish off. I felt fantastic afterwards! And today I rode constantly on my exercise bike, and did a fitstrip, push-ups, sit-ups and starjumps workout tonight to top it off. I have really wanted to eat everything in the house today, but am glad to say the shelves remained stocked, and I'm not going to let myself get run down or mopey or general sook at the fact that I don't have a ready supply of hugs and kisses whenever I need them! :)

Saturday, March 18, 2006

First Challenge Weigh-in


I LOST!
YAY!
I weighed in this morning and lost 0.6kgs, which (at the end of the day) I am happy with. This morning I really was hoping for big dramatic "moving off the plateau into a new stage" numbers, but it is a loss and its good!
Sticking to my goals for not eating bonus points, and I don't want to use all my sugar points either, I'd really like to keep that low and hope it effects a good loss. I have also set up my exercise for the week, it looks like this:

SAT - cycle 20mins, 25mins yoga
Sun - swim for 1 hour (I am aiming for 2.5kms!)
Mon - Fitstrip DVD and 20min cycle
Tues - swim morning 40min- 1.7kms, swim evening 1/2 swim & 1/2 aqua running
Wed - pilates morning, 20min cycle
Thurs - Week 8 dvd and 45min swim, 1.8kms
Fri - I'm going to try jogging for 30mins along the bike track.

It's been an interesting day, went to WW, got to go to dinner at a friends (always exciting). I also got the newspaper for the first time in weeks, which (sad to say I know...) has been really quite exciting for me! I have been reading an interesting article about some research saying that they think that the current obesity crisis is caused by a virus. Personally I think it is a bit of a reach, if anything it just makes people more susceptible to weight gain, you still have to eat to much energy and not burn enough for it to work.

I've pasted the article below, as seen in the SMH on the 18th of March.

Virus blamed for obesity epidemic

By Deborah Smith Science Editor, March 18, 2006


AS MANY as one in five Australians may have contracted a virus linked to obesity. Blood tests on 2000 Australians, carried out in the US, showed about 20 per cent of them had been exposed to a virus called Ad-36, which some researchers say can cause weight gain.
The idea that fatness is catching is controversial. However, Richard Atkinson, Emeritus Professor of Medicine at the University of Wisconsin in Madison, who did the testing, said a fat virus could help explain the worldwide epidemic of obesity.
"I believe obesity is a complex disease of many causes, one of which is viral infection," he said. How Ad-36 caused fatness was not known exactly, but it had been detected in fat cells in people and animals. In the laboratory it stimulates cells that are pre-fat cells to become fat cells.
Ethically, it was not possible to obtain proof of its role by infecting a lean person with a virus to see whether they got fat, Dr Atkinson said. "We would not have a whole lot of volunteers for that."
But he and colleagues have shown that chickens, mice and marmosets become fatter after infection with Ad-36 - one of more than 50 human adenoviruses that usually cause colds, eye infections and diarrhoea. Ad-36 was easily transmitted between animals in the same cage. "The uninfected animals got infected and got fat," Dr Atkinson said.
Tests on more than 500 Americans found about 30 per cent of obese people had been exposed to the virus, compared with 11 per cent of non-obese people. They identified 26 pairs of twins where only one had been infected with Ad-36.
"And just as we predicted, the infected twins were heavier and fatter," said Dr Atkinson, who has established a company that tests for the virus.
The Australians studied were also twins, but he said labels on their blood samples had been mixed up in another American laboratory, so a similar comparison was not possible. However, Professor Nick Martin, of the Queensland Institute of Medical Research, who collaborated on the project, said his analysis found no link between Ad-36 infection and body mass index.
Ian Caterson, Professor of Human Nutrition at the University of Sydney, said that while it was possible a virus contributed to obesity, people should not worry they might have caught it. Any link "is still to be proven".
Obesity in Australia has more than doubled since 1980, a rise blamed on overeating and inactivity.

There was also an article about some tests they have done with mice and genes etc. I really would not like to be a mouse in these labs. They fed some a high energy diet, and guess what? they got fat. Then they fed them a controlled energy diet, and guess what? They lost weight. Then they gave them heaps of healthy food, but instead of maintaning their weight, they gorged on healthy foods and gained there weight back. Great, huh?! So they reackon that the body likes to "protect" its weight. Not good news for us losers, means we have to work really hard to keep it off! The mice also confirmed some things we already new, that genetics do play a part, and some people can eat junk and not gain weight. We ALL know one of those... grr to them...They also talked about the weight around the middle vs around the bottom and seemed to come to the conclusion that that is not just genetics, but related to the foods you eat, which is not what has been said lately, so is interesting... I think I might explore this more later. :)

Basically I feel the moral of the story is that it still comes down to what you eat and how much you exercise, and you can have heaps of excuses that you can blame, but you still have control. Except for the .001% of people who have that rare disease... but seriously, so many things are linked to obesity, and your genetics, health, even stress can affect your weight, but you still get to make the choice of to eat the choc or to not, or to sit on the couch or walk out the door. I chose the happy life! :)

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Thursday's sweet sweet cravings...


I WANT SUGAR!
I'm no letting myself have any, I'm going to have jarrah hot choc instead! Still, sometimes I really hate being a woman with all these craving hormones and all...
I did pilates for the first time this morning I years, it was good. And I've discovered something amazing:

I CAN DO PROPER PUSH-UPS!!!

I'm really excited about this :)
My hubby and I are doing push-ups and sit-ups, and just added those handslaps that they do on TBL, during the ad breaks of The Biggest Loser. I set another friend on the challenge as well, so we are both going to be nice and toned, just wait and see! :)
Swim time soon, I need to get out of the house, chlorine and sugar don't mix well, so I'll be safe at the pool!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Wednesday's Girl


I wanted to add this photo onto here because it was a kind of milestone to me. This was taken on Jan 26th and next to me are dear friends (and former housemates!) that are both petite size 6's. I love them both, but when I weighed in the 80's it was very hard getting back photos at all, let alone with beauties such as these standing next to me!
This photo was great, because when I saw it my first thought was NOT "gosh I look fat!", but instead it was "wow, I look good!"
I saw this and I felt like I fitted in, not that I stuck out like a big pimple or something. Its a very nice feeling. YAY! And there isn't a double chin in sight (actually mine was more of no distinction between my neck and chin... either way, it's gone!)

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

My Challenge- Tuesday


I am so proud of myself today! I went for my swim event though I could have happily gone back to sleep, but I had organized it with a friend, and that was got both of us there! So that was great, I found it hard because I haven't been swimming as much as I used to - I've been using my exercise bike more, and now I think I am too used to that as exercise. So I pushed myself along and did 1.5 km in 30min, which I feel is a good start. AND I'm going for another swim with some WW buddies this arvo, so double the workout for today!
I got to look after a whole room full of little kiddies today, and I loved it. They were all quite good too, not like last week, where I turned up and it seemed everyone was crying or screaming! Anyway I enjoy it, and I also resisted the home-made choc chip bikkies that were there for the taking, feeling very good about that! I came home to my nice no count lunch instead!

Monday, March 13, 2006

First week of my challenge - Monday


Well I had a pretty good start to my challenge, over the weekend I had a former housemates 21st which was great, and even better by the fact that I didn't eat the chocolate mudcake, and I only had pepsi max and water to drink, so I'm pretty happy with myself! I got some exercise in, and even planned an extra swim with a friend of mine for tomorrow, yay!
Today was a really horrible start to a day, as a uni student I don't work heaps, so I spent all morning trying to work out with centrelink if I could get a health care card and I still didn't have it by the time I saw the doctors and I get really stressed by doctors, so by this time I was a little teary. BUT, instead of doing what I felt like doing, which is eating all sorts of comfort food, I had a banana, some water and some rice wheels, and felt a whole lot better for it! So YAY for me, I'm feeling good! I'm going to go ride my bike for my 40 minutes right now, and then enjoy a yummy no count lunch! And I'm de-stressed by reading the WW Boards to, so I'm ready to face uni and work and the rest of my day! :)

Saturday, March 11, 2006

My 6 Week Challenge!


MY 6 WEEK CHALLENGE!

I have set myself a challenge!

My challenge is to
1)exercise more often and more varied, to
2)eat only my 21 extras (not bonus points too, like I have been lately!), and
3)count all my sugar points, and to ultimately
4)lose 2.5kgs in 6 weeks.

Because of recent illness, I have let some of my good habits slip, but I am going to get my head in the right spot, my body moving more (and differently), and my eating organized in advance and free of overdoing the sugar or eating to many extras by using all my bonus points. I haven't been really bad of late, but I also haven't been as great as I can be, and I want to live to my full potential! So I am writing out my exercise plan, following the lunch and dinner recipe's on the weekly booklet, and not letting myself get carried away on unnecessary extras and sugar points. I write my exercise and count my extras and sugar points on a whiteboard on the fridge, but I'm also going to put them here so I don't have any way to forget them!

My exercise plan for this week is:
Sat: cycling 40min @36km/h
Sun: Swim 45min 1.6kms
Mon: cycling 40mins @36km/h
Tues: Swim 45min 1.7kms
Wed: Day off, to busy today
Thurs: Swim 45min 1.8kms
Fri: Tennis with friends, minimum 1 hour

My next task is to write the shopping list for ingredients so I can make some of the yummy recipe's in this week's planner! I LOVE the menu planner, it is keeping my food varied and interesting and very yummy, and variety is what I need to get of this 72kgs that I have been stuck on, and down into the 60's!

I'm gunna be a 60's girl soon! I haven't been in the sixties since I was 15 and doing swimming training all the time! YAY!

Friday, March 10, 2006

Getting rid of a little baggage


You know when life just get so busy that you forget to do anything for yourself to look after yourself? I feel had one of those weeks, and even though we were organized enough to get all the groceries at once (big achievement of late!), and cook all the lunches and dinners from the no count menu planner, I am still a little nervous about weigh in. I don't usually get really nervous, but I have been stuck at the same weight for the last 6 weeks and it is starting to get to me. Oh well, if I make good, healthy choices, they will catch up to me, eventually!
I have also had to tackle a few emotional trails lately, and that is my BIG habit I am always working on and the reason I am blogging, to get everything out and not bottle anything up that could pose a exploding, binging danger... :)
So things I have done this week are to plan, so I can't fall to eating whatever, and when wanting chocolate, I put it away in a container, not left it in the packet where I ca nibble and nibble... So I feel really good about that. I also chose to not hide in big clothes. I hid very well behind my weight, and previous attempts at losing weight were very half-hearted (though I can only see this by hindsight!). After a very bad boyfriend experience in high school I really let myself off the hook for all my eating behaviours, saying that I wasn't beautiful or worthwhile, and really doing everything I could to keep myself fat and 'unattractive'. Not anymore! I have a loving, wonderful husband and those awful emotions are behind me, and I won't revert back into the habits that I formed back then whenever I have bad day, or am feeling down, or anything! This is my changed, permanent life!
I like rambling, it's very helpful!
:)

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Mini Goals- all the way to GOAL!

This bloggin' thing is really quite relaxing really. I am a painter, but since I am at uni and therefore painting becomes 'work', it is nice to have something else to do as relaxation. I have been checking out other people's blogs, to see what everyone is doing , and I love the dedication everyone has in writing out completely their mini goals all the way to goal. So I have decided that that is what I am going to do toady, so that I can see them right in front of me and be inspired every day to keep on going, because it is worth it!

Current Weight : 71kgs

First Mini Goal : 69kg
Reward : Stylish Hair cut and colour! (I really need this! Very motivated!)

Second Mini Goal : 66kg (almost there!)
Reward : Start leader's training, I am really looking forward to that! I love helping others :) - Also a new pair of jeans so I have something to wear during winter!

Third Mini Goal : 64kgs (WEIGHT WATCHERS GOAL WEIGHT!)
Reward : I am going to get a belly button ring (and pierce said belly button... and it's going to be on a very nice belly button by then! :)

Ultimate GOAL! : 60kgs - I have no idea what I will be like at a healthy weight, so I am just going to have to play it by ear on the exact figure!
Reward : I have always wanted to have one of those glamour photos done. My hubby and I are putting aside a bit of money as we go, so hopefully I can have a photo shoot to remember!



I have a healthy BMI!! WOOT! WWGW of 65kgs acheived Sept 2009.

On the way to the 50's...