On we go...

I'm having one of those weeks this week. Xavier is getting his molars, so it's been no sleep, temperatures, gunk coming from ears and nose, and this morning, the worst poos ever. Have you seen the ad on TV for number 3's? Thats my dining roon today. I've scrubbed and scrubbed, and antisepticed everything, and I can still smell it. Needless to say, I'm off to the doctors with him today, just to check there is nothing else going on.

Anyway, thats my whinge. no great changes in weight for me, I've been too tired/busy to focus on it. But I know I need to track, even when life is yucky, so I've pulled up the tracker, and am being a good girl.

At least, until the internet drops out again. :P

Back in the right direction.

So I just have to keep it going!

Pre-tracking is working well for me, I'm tracking my entire day at the beginning of the day, and then sticking to it. I know I don't have room to justify things this way! And down 0.7kg, on a week where I have been sick all week, and ttom, I'm happy with that. :)

Onwards we go!

It's February already?!

I honestly don't know what happened to January. It seems to have been lost in a black hole. Unfortunately, there must have been food in the hole, as I seem to have found some extra kilos, but I am back in control, and moving them off again.

Actually, I do know what happened to January, it was highly populated! 4 new baby's have arrived in the lives of those around me, and I'm been clucking so loudly I'm sure you have all been wanting chicken for dinner...

I am feeling the pressure from Duane for another child very strongly, and have been rather sad about the fact that we can't yet (we still need to finish the list of things needed to be in place beforehand), but am trying to funnel that into getting those things done. Like getting my weight down as much as I can. I've started looking for a wheelchair friendly car, so that I may actually be able to get out a bit. I need to look into the cost of a carer, and Xavier still hasn't been accepted into childcare, but if I keep focused, I won't lose the plot. Well, not too much. :)

I'm just rambling, but it is good to ramble. I've adjusted my goals out a little, and I am determined to not compromise myself or my health. This is a bit deal, and I am making it a priority!

I hope you had a great January ( I had a wonderful time with all the baby cuddles... oh so many babies... so CUTE!) and that February is as sweet as it is short.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

It's just a quick post from me, I have had an army of people at my house for the last 10 days, and it has been fantastic, but I am completely exhasted!

I haven't given a thought to WW, but I also haven't been silly, and I'm delighted to be sporting a great loss over christmas, and I am hopefull that it will still be there when I go to my meeting on Saturday. Either way, 2010 will see a trim little RaeRae before we start trying for another child. Hopefully next NYE I'll be sharing pregnancy news!

Have a wonderful last day of 2010!

On the mend :)

I'm finally feeling a bit more alive, so am pulling myself back onto the wagon, and plan to be on track for my 50's challenge, I've only go to get 0.2 off in the next two weeks to be on track. That is achievable, even with Christmas looming!

I'm still very sore and exhausted from surgery on Wednesday, but my ankle has settled enough to let me off the crutches (still painful, but I can walk straight on it, which is what I need to do for my hips), so I am happy about that at least. Unfortunately the surgery didn't go as well as hoped, but I've had my few days moping about that, and I'm just going to keep on going now. :)

My aims this week are:

combat negative thoughts - whenever I catch myself getting negative or down, write it down and turn it to a positive.
No exercise - need to heal
Therefore, I need to be perfect with my tracking.

Well we have our church Christmas event on this afternoon, and I singing in the choir (hopefully, providing I can stand that long) and then face painting the kiddlywinks. So I should get myself on the move!

I hope you are all enjoying beautiful summer weather,
Rae :)

It's been one of those weeks...

Well I can't say I'm the happiest of chookens. It's been a shocker of a week. I'm back on crutches, because Duane accidentally knocked a large heavy box onto my ankle, which I then hobbled around one, and subsequently put my hips out very shortly after. Then on Saturday, my gorgeous 3yr old cat Sora sickened and died overnight, we think she may have been bitten by a spider or something, we have no other explanation. Then a lovely lady from church that I have know for years, has become a widow with 4 young children, when her husband died of a heart attack on Sunday at the age of 38. So we are ALL cut up about that. Throw in a shop audit on Thursday, and surgery tomorrow, and I'm well beyond stressed and grumpy and teary, into the world of just plain BLURGH.

*big breath* Sorry about the rant. It's been an awful week. I didn't get to WI on Saturday, as I was bawling my eyes out as the cat was buried. I think I may have put on about 0.5kg, (also TTOM - just for laughs) but I am just going to leave it blank, and record my weight on Saturday. At least with surgery tomorrow I am not allowed to eat anything all day, maybe that will shrink my appetite back to more sensible proportions!

Doing the Happy Dance on the scales this week!

I'm So excited today! I weighed in at my meeting, and I've lost a WHOLE KILO! That is unheard of for me! WOOOOHOOOO!

Only 4 weeks until Christmas, and I'm feeling great. I can't wait to have my family over, and friends that I haven't seen for a while. We will be getting family photos done (Dad has already given me advance warning, I should probably book haircuts now actually!) and they will be my first family photos at a healthy weight. Well, there may have been a kindda healthy one at age 12.

Speaking of which, I currently weigh the same as what I did when I was 13. How scary is that?!

In honour of my sudden desire for Christmas to be here, I've put up some of my scrapbook pages from Xavier's first Christmas. He has discovered the joy of presents recently, so it should be really exciting this year! I have also bought some cheap little disney books that we can wrap up and give to his friends, because that is a far more important that I want him to learn, the joy of giving. :)

Well I have a dessert to make and its even WW friendly. I'm making Apple and Berry Crumble to take to a BBQ tonight, so I know that I'll have something non-dairy to eat, that also won't burst my tracking streak. I haven't had a single point out of place for two weeks. And I'm happy to keep it that way!

I hope you are all having a WONDERFUL weekend!

I'm thankful for...

Safety pins!

My pile of sewing is getting larger, and my available wardrobe is getting smaller... which is totally fine! However I noticed today, that I have been wearing a minimum of 1 safety pin each day this week, with the maximum being 6 on my dress on Sunday. It fell off without them!

Anyway, I just thought I would share my little secret, my new little friends. You save me from many an embarrassing moment! I love you safety pin! :P


I'm hoping the increase in pinnyness (yes, I know it is not a word!) means I'm in for a good WI tomorrow. Or maybe the sleeplessness and the perfect tracking will just cancel each other out. I'm curious to see!

Off to a good start

Well I am back under goal, so that is a great start! I weighed in today at 64.8, so down 0.7 since last saturday. I'm still feeling a little tight in clothing that fit only weeks ago, but Duane has already asked me if I have gotten smaller, so I probably lost some of the bloat that has been hanging around.

My hips and joints are really painful at the moment, so I'm taking things easy. It just means I have to be exact with my points. I love eTools, best thing I ever invested in! All my meals are planned, including lunches, which I don't normally plan (I always do the dinners, but lunch has been my downfall lately), so I'm ready to rock 'n roll.

I've put a pic up of one of my artworks I have on exhibit at the moment (it sold on opening night though, so I can't exactly call it mine anymore!). Just to remind me why I want to lose the extra weight. :)

Thanks Jen for still reading, I really appreciate it! *hugs* :)

A new challenge!

Well I am rather sad to say that I am struggling! I have had a very busy few weeks, but no excuse will be allowed for the extra 1.7kgs I am now carrying. So I have set myself a new challenge. I have very good reasons to lose a little more weight in the next 6 months (think cute, lovable, and baking for 9 months), so I need to get myself into gear, as I know it will be slow going to get under 60kgs, but I am determinded to give myself the best possible pregnancy next time, and delay the wheelchair and bedrest for as long as possible.

So I have given myself a 50's challenge. I aim to be in the 50's for March next year, which is our tentative date for resuming fertility treatment (and therefore hope for a pregnancy to follow quickly thereafter!). There are a few other things that have to be achieved before then (toilet training, Xavier accepted into a daycare centre, etc) but I am moving this up the list. I started at 66kgs last time, and every extra kilo hurt that much more. And I only gained 7 all up. So if I can start at 7kgs less, hopefully that will be a much easier load for my hips!

So I'm tracking everyday, I haven't been over my points since last friday. Now that the Art Exhibition has opened (so I am no longer spending every waking moment painting, or some of the sleeping times...) I am planning to get back into exercise. Considering I was quite fit prior to Xavier, I need to make sure I get some serious core strength together, to help my hips.

Anyway, so that is my challenge. It's really just getting back into weightloss mode, but I have found without a solid new 'goal' the weightloss mindset has been completely lacking. I'm being realistic though. 5kgs in 4 months, it's less than 300gs a week. I can totally do that! :)

On the flip side through, we went camping recently, which basically meant I not only wore my new bikini out in public, but I basically lived in it for 3 days. Duane took this pic of me and Xavier as we were packing up to leave, and he somehow made me look a little like a supermodel! Must be because you can't see my tummy... but anyway, I really like it, and am so excited to actually have photos from a holiday that I don't cringe at. Well, not too much anyway! Besides, Xavier is just so cute... he loved camping so much, but he was exhasted and feel asleep before we had even left. Most days, I just love this age!

I got to lifetime today!!

HIP, HIP, HORRAY!!!

(I'm very excited, just in case you can't tell!)

32.5 pts, in one day!! EEEK!

So things haven't been so great the last few days. We were over at a friends house for dinner Saturday night, and even though I had 7 points ready for dinner, I went over by 7.5, as we had takeaway pizza. Then Duane and I both had a yucky 24 virus, so that wiped any hope of any redeeming exercise on Sunday.

Then yesterday, I had a whooping 32.5pts.

It's all a bit crazy, isn't it!

So I still have to make up 21 points to break even, by weigh-in on Saturday. Which means treadmill everyday! I can't remember the last time I have ever had such a bad time, I have been tracking perfectly for so long, it just feels so terribly wrong!

To be fair, I did try. Our store got broken into in the early hours of yesterday morning, so after we got the call from the police, we then went in to the store to take a look at the damage. at 4 in the morning. So at 5am we had Macca's. Which I don't ever have, and had no idea on. Needless to say, I was not happy to work out I had started my day with an 8 point breakfast! Then out for lunch, and a few of Duane's malteasers at the movies. And there you are. Easy as that! No wonder we all put on weight so easily! I'm proud of the fact that I still tracked every morsel. And I probably estimated the malteasers and lunch a little high... but I'm going to make up those 21 points.

Hopefully it won't kill me! :)

Size, shape, and all those conformities...

Does anyone else find it impossible to work out what their shape is? I know what it used to be... it used to be fat. Now it is not. But what is it? I don't seem to fit any of the boxes... I wanna know how to Trinny and Sussanah it up!

And then there is the sizing measurements. If I was to believe what size I am from the measurement charts, I come out like this:

Bust - size 6 (YEAH RIGHT!!)
Waist - Size 14 (EEEEEKKK!!)
Hips - Size 10

So yeah, that was really helpful, wasn't it!

That's it, that's my rant. I just don't get it...

My 10yr High School Reunion!

It's over! The 10yr High School Reunion I've been planning for most of the year was on Saturday, and it was great! We ending up with a rather small gathering, so I changed the venue to this GORGEOUS restaurant called Ellacure in Bruce (visit it if you are in the neighbourhood, you won't be disappointed!) and had a wonderful time catching up with old friends. It was wonderful to not only get compliments on how I looked and on my little red dress, but to just feel normal around the people I always felt humongous next to. That was a truly wonderful feeling. To not have to worry about squishing anyone in photos, or that I as popping out of my hold-everything-in underwear (which still didn't eliminate the tummy rolls), it was just plain good. :)

I even made an event of it at my WW weigh-in! The white T-shirt with the black print (left hand photo) was a freebie I got, size XXL. That picture was taken the last day of high school, and I'm wearing my daggy freebie shirt, cos honestly, I didn't have a lot else to wear! It was even too small to fit over my hips, so just kind of bunched around the middle. Anyway, I wore it to weigh-in, over the top of my reunion dress, and under my coat. Being very brave, I went up the front of 30 or so men and women, and took of my coat, and showed my photos of me 10yrs ago and my size XXXL school jersey (Which was also uncomfortably small. I think it was the biggest size I could get though. And it came down to my knees...). Then, while they were exclaiming about that, I showed them what I was wearing that night the reunion, and it was GREAT! I've never had so many cat-calls in my life. *blushing*

So that was my weekend. I am paying for it on the scales this week, eating 5 meals out in 3 days will do that! However I'm getting on top of it before it becomes an issue, and I'm looking forward to getting my lifetime membership in 3 more weeks!

He's 2!

It's been a very busy month in the Green household. On the 17th of September, my little boy turned 2! I'm still in denial, but we had a party for him anyway. :)
In fact, he had a birthday party, followed his actually birthday, and then a cake at Playgroup the following week. So it was a week long celebration! Gotta love birthdays!

Obsessed with Thomas, and spoilt for choice. Nearly every present involved Thomas!

Opening presents is so exciting!

With some friends at the party. It's not really about the kids, is it... :)

I get my very own Birthday cake? YAY!

I MADE IT TO GOAL!!!!

Well, so much for blogging! I can't believe how terribly slack I have been, I didn't do a single post since I rejoined WW in January. Well at least it has been successful in other ways, because I have finally made goal! IN fact, I'm under it. Even better.

So, after 13 or so years of being overweight or obese (with the exception of when I was pregnant, which funnily I was at a healthy BMI for most of it), I am here. The Healthy Weight Range. I'm a bit in awe actually... I think it will take some getting used to!

I think that is why, after all this time, I remembered to blog again. Because this will be something totally new to me. The idea of being no longer labeled as "big", "fat", "overweight", "obese", I'm finding it hard to wrap my head around. So I think writing down my thoughts again might just be the thing I need right now.

On a really positive note, this means dress shopping for me! I have my 10yr high school reunion in a few weeks, and I'm getting a cute little dress for the occasion, since I made it to goal. Duane even bought me flowers today as a congratulations. :)

So this is me. Having my own little celebration party on my neglected little blog. I have only told my mum, husband and 2 friends that I have made goal as of my WW meeting this morning. So it feels nice to send this out onto the web. Like I'm telling someone who has been there through all the ups downs and blank periods. It's a cool feeling. :D

hmm... I just went looking for a recent picture of me, and I couldn't find one! So all I have from the last few months, is a rather unflattering one of me at the Perth Zoo. Better get Duane to take some. Opps! At least there is plenty of Xavier!

It's been a looong time, but I'm back again!

Ok, so it's been more than a year, but we can forget that right? I'm back into the blogging!

It was a very big year for me. I was still in a wheelchair at the beginning of 2008, but I left it without walking aids. In fact, I've been aid free for over 7 months now. In that time I've been mostly maintaining my weight. I've been up a bit, down a bit, but I'm glad to say I haven't ballooned, so thats something at least!

Right now though, I'm struggling to get out of the random snacking habit that has crept back in again lately, so I've joined up at WW again. It also come down to simple maths really, I can spend a small fortune on a new wardrobe so that I'm not always feeling slightly uncomfortable in too tight clothing. Or I can just lose a couple of kilos. Makes sense really!

So I signed up last night, joined the unlimited program so I can't just go whenever I feel like it, as it has already been paid for, and moved chocolate off the bench and safely into the cupboard! I will admit to dressing very heavily and drinking 2L of water directly prior to weigh in though, as I wanted to make sure I did have 5 kilos to lose to get to goal, though I overcompensated a little I think! WOOPS! So My official rejoin weight is 73.5, however I'm only about 70. I'll dress normally next week. Plus I found out when I got there that you only have to lose 3 kilos now, I wish I'd known that before I went!

Well now that I've almost done my first weightloss post in over a year, I also want to add, that I'm going to be very relaxed about it this time. I still don't have great movment, and my physical recovery is of a higher importance than weightloss. However losing weight means less strain on my pelvis, so it's well worth it!

So if there is anyone still reading my old forgetten blog, HI!!

Rae :)

How to get to "goal" in one easy step...

Funny story this week, I am "apparently" at goal again!!

As I am in the wheelchair still, and was having great dilemmas getting onto the scales and balancing, the lovely staff at my meeting pulled out the old scales and the wheelchair attachment to weigh me last week. So it went as follows:

1. wheel self onto scales and hold on to wheels so don't go zooming into a wall.

2. watch as an ugly number (actually, almost exactly my original start weight - YES, I used to weigh as much as me, the wheelchair and a full and heavy nappy bag combined... eeek!)

3. Hop out of wheelchair and watch as it and nappy bag (it lives on the bag of the wheelchair and I'd forgotten to take it off) get weighed.

4. show of my mathematically inclined brain when I look at the number and say "uummmm.. I don't thinks that's right, because that is a very big loss!"

5. wait around while the staff use the calculator and figure out that I lost:

5.5kilos!!

teheehee!!

Anyway, they decided we are writing it down and just going of that next week. So I think I'll be changing my "goal" to 62 or so (have updated the ticker to reflect that)...

Realistically though, I think I lost about 1.5 kilos this week (from the digital scales at home), so there was still a great loss in there!

Unfortunately I won't be able to make a meeting this week, as we are going to Sydney on Friday for a wedding (which of course is very exciting and totally worth missing WW for!! Plus i hope to see Donna too while I'm there, Xavier wants to meet you Donna!!! *grin* Will email you in just a sec...) and I haven't managed to find a way to another meeting. And I'm also sorry to say there has been fish and chips, plus an unusually large amount of chocolate this week, so I have some good balanced tracking I need to do!

So that was my funny story for the week! :D

Other than that, I've been really busy lately! Xavier had his immunizations on Monday and has been a little off, so needing extra attention, but otherwise we are all going well.

Definitely bed time now though... so will try and get back on here soon, otherwise watch the blogs for wedding photos soon!

Love, Rae :D

1kg first week loss!

Yep, 1kg while eating 26 points per day and no exercise!! WOOOT!!!

Having a lovely weekend, it's bright and sunny and we have really enjoyed having a good friend come visit!

BBL, Sunday is family day as it's the only day Duane has off!

A little more than i thought, but it's all good!

I went and joined up at WW again today, and weighed in at 72.5... however the top of my healthy weight range is now recorded as 66, so it's only 6.5 to go til I hit that! I can so do that!

Honestly, I'm so proud of myself for getting out the door this morning for an 8am meeting with a wheelchair and a baby... granted I fed him after all the joining up etc while listening to the talk... but still, we got there! I am so Lucky that I have someone to take me and hold and help me up on the scales etc... yay!

Anyway, onto the points for a little while, so I can get used to eating 26 points.... WOW that is heaps! I would love to go back to my lovely friend NoCount (oops, sorry CORE...) but I think i need to track for a while first, as i also want to balance food groups, and also have a record of what I have eaten so I can work out which are the foods that seem to effect Xavier more.

I am so excited about being back into it all, bring it on!!

Plus we went shopping afterwards, and let me tell you wheeling a wheelchair which has somewaht flat tyres is a VERY good workout! :D

Have a great weekend everyone!
Rae :)